Back in 1996 when a client’s attack left me legally disabled with a brain injury, I discovered what it is like to lose one’s intellectual powers and daily routine living skills. I suddenly saw how so many people spend so much energy compensating to keep in school, at work and even in play–because their brains work differently.

Those people (some of whom get labeled “learnng disabled”) don’t go around explaining how much harder every day life is for them. They jut go about living it. For me, such people are the true heroes in our world.

With the surgery there isn’t exactly an injury (okay, I guess the severed chord and accompanying paralysis could be seen as injury–as a by-product). This brain experience has taught me how precious every little simple thing we do daily is a precious gift we get to experience each and every day.

Yesterday was the first time I could button and unbutton a shirt in I don’t know how many years. For me, you see, that is yet another miracle in my life.

When your world turns upside-down you get to see anew and witness countless miracles you just fail to see otherwise.

only I just didn’t have the energy to share with you the fact that I started composing a new piece yesterday. Been a long time ince I sat at the piano and started playing. I miss the singing but hey, I started compoing instrumentals when I was a wee tiny kid and I love it t5oo. I just wish I knew how to write all the music I hear in my head–or is that in my heart?

I awakened this morning and quickly discovered reason to celebrate, for two years my left hand and fingers were so numb even though I could tell something was touching them or I was holding something (I had to look at my hand to make that happen–basically mentally instruct my hand and fingers about what to do) but I could not feel objects.

Today I can actually feel with the fingers of my left hand.

I now what I am touching and don’t need to see how to hold something!

I’ver been living in happiness, smiling lots more–even when taking care of the massive medical bills! And my world is once again flowing, carrying me to what I want in life–which, bottomline–is to be happy and healthy.

sometimes we need friend to remind us of what we already know! Thanks to each of you who does that for me–and for others too.

I figured something out today.

I noticed myself continuing to listen for messages from my Higher Self and the Universe–still wanting to figure all this out.

Only it isn’t my job to figure it out. It is my job to love me and with all this physical stuff making outside communication so hard, I missed the whole lesson: I have to love me enough to spend most of each day doing all the stretching, magnets, etc to heal. Yup.

When I lived my life always putting the needs of others ahead of mine (I was still doing so after the surgery) the loving Universe had to get right up in my face and yell as loudly as it needs to so I pay attention.

I had stopped carrying on the two-way conversations with my Higher Self that allowed my life to flow and boom–I failed to hear the wisdom coming in all day long.

There is no where to get to and nothing to get–except love and happiness by me and for me.

I am no different than you. At your very core, do you love yourself first? So many people think they do–until they take a deeper look (always shows up in health–spiritual, emotional and physical issues).

When my speech/swallow therapist gave me a hug today I remembered that everyone needs 4 hugs a day to survive, 8 to make it through, 12 to thrive. That is part of loving you first–get your hugs!

Here is the update I’ve been anticipating for quite a while. Remember that the following represents the paradigm of the doctors. What do doctors see? sick people.I am not sick and refuse to buy into their paradigm AND I do need help to build and reinforce my wellness paradigm.

Today’s video of my larynx revealed that my right vocal chord is paralyzed. The doctor said it may or may not be permanent (his paradigm) and it usually takes 6-12 months to heal from the brain surgery I had done so we can know the result.

Like the neurosurgeon (referring to the paralyzed right side of my tongue) he said it depends on the severed nerve and what kind of regeneration happens.

Please see my cranial nerve 10 healing at lightning speed for my full recovery of my life. after all, our bodies can do anything when we see it as truth. I sure did learn that back with the brain injury when those doctors said I would not get better.

When you believe it, you see it. Most people have that one backwards.

Thank you for your continuing love, support, prayers and healing energy. I still have so much to share with the world!

On Wednesday at 9:30 AM the larynxologist will feed the camera through my nose down into my vocal chords. Finally, the intention is that we wil have the info confirmed on what is going on with my breathing, speaking and swallowing.

Of course I kjnow the truth underlying all of what I created healthwise.

I “get” the Universe wants me to rest, to stop learning new things (I didn’t even research the condition the speech/swallow therapist tred to assign to me (hey, why should I own it?) and come from a place of nothing but pure love–of self. LOVE is the only answer. AND it must begin with loving my own True Self.

And the same goes for every person on the planet.

Yay! The MRI showed everything as perfectly normal–neck and lower brain. You can see the sac of fluid (?) where the tumor used to be. No sign of anything bad.

So why do I really need your help?

The surgeon aid my tongue will not recover–which, in his world means it always be paralyzed on the right side. That numbness causes the swallowing and speech difficulties.

I am not willing to buy into his paradigm–I love eating, drinking, speaking and singing too much to struggle for always.

When a client left me legally disabled with a brain injury back in 1996, the medical team also said I would not recover. I didn’t buy into their paradigm either and got better.

I didn’t get better all by myself. The Universe guided me all over the country to the people who help me heal. so here I am with entirely different symptoms yet the same situation.

Your continuing to see me whole and perfect, easily and comfortably eating and drinking anything I want, speaking easily and clearly and singing powerfully with volume–will help me manifest that reality. I am doing that too. The more people who do it, the bigger the thought form grows and the faster the Universe will lead me to that healing.

thank you for your loving support!

Well, I completed the 5th MRI today. I no longer fear them.

Thanks for all your support. It makes a huge difference.

Today’s experience was not the best. You wonder when they stop everything and completely change the hardware set-up. I wound up with my head/neck in one cage and my upper body in another. I could not have moved if I wanted to! Egad.

Breathing was really tough so I told myself I get to choose whose paradigm I live in–that of the medical team or mine.

Guess what choice I made.

In a way If eel like a little kid. every seemingly little accomplishment is such a huge step forward in my world. Happily my therapists share my wow excitement–they know how much work it takes to rebuild your body–and, firstly, your mind.

the other day a friend remarked that she had a cold and must have sneezed 50 times the previous day. When I told here I wished I could do that and then explained why she had a whole new appreciation and perspective on sneezing.

I can now blow my nose 99.9% of the time and I can do a pretty good spit (You gotta do that when you clean your teeth, right?) But I still cannot sneeze or cough or breathe in many positions. And one of those positions is lying on my back–which I have to d on WED AM for yet another MRI (this is the second on my neck). Please send Light so I easily accomplish lying on my back to complete a successful MRI(including nothing irregular showing!!!)

Oh Yeah–id i tell you I am playing piano again? YES! I LOVE keyboards. Only it has been so long since I’ve been able to use my fingers I forgot how to play so I dragged out all the beginner books I could find.

Hmm. I wonder why where my guitar books are???

Isn’t life grand!!!!!

I drove my car today. Now feel free again.

But wait–I also blew my nose today–no small feat. egad–so many muscles and nerves and vocal chords must coordinate to sneeze, cough, blow and spit. Still working on the others.